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[aight fam. this has been a good day so far; nice weather, probably some hanging out with friends for lunch, that sort of thing. so hopefully these two are nice and chill and madly in love with each other in preparation for a scheduled conflict (probably). they've established the fact that they need to discuss some unpleasant topics and clear the air about some things, and now's as good a time as any.

it's evening now, there's cheesy pasta on the kitchen table, and we're gonna sit down and talk about headcanons. put your butt in a chair, Lea.]

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Yes.

[she's not going to volunteer information until Lea asks, because she's well aware that she kind of made last night all about her, and that that was part of the problem. she's not going to do the same here, but also she's not the only one who fucked up.

Good.

[ At least one of them did. She would be worried about her even more than she already is, if it were the opposite. There's a little pause, and Lea's eyes are on the floor. ]

Sorry. About what I said last night.

["prove it"; "good, you should be"; "you'll have to do better than that".]

...thank you. I'm sorry too, not for anything I said, but for making it a fight when it didn't need to be.

[seems like Isa had a reality check overnight, interesting.]

You didn't really say anything worth apologizing for. I get it. Sorta.

[ She gets, at least a little, what Isa was going for and why you would at least want someone you care about to understand something important to you, anyway. Lea recognizes that she could have handled it a lot better, or at least a lot less emotionally. ]

I mean it, though. Sorry doesn't really cover it. I shouldn't have said that, and I didn't mean what I said anyway.

You did a little bit, or you wouldn't have said it.

[but she appreciates it. she finally moves from her spot by the door, crossing to the couch and sitting down within arm's reach of Lea, but not immediately next to her.]

I was upset.

[ She may have said the same thing if she was calm, however. Lea's looking a the floor again. Does the couch smell like burnt fabric or is it just her? ]

[the apartment smells a bit like a fire, yes. so far this is all a bit cathartic, that she managed to finally piss Lea off as much as Lea's ever pissed her off.]

Did you torch something after I left?

I screamed into a pillow so hard it burst into flames.

[ There are some remnants, tucked up beneath the couch and out of view. She doesn't really feel any better. She's happy and less anxious now that Isa's back, but she feels bad about how she reacted, and bad that it happened at all. ]

[catharsis, although Isa also feels bad about how things went. however: ]

I suppose I should be glad you didn't burn the building down. I um. Went berserk.

[if anything was going to make it happen post-recompletion, it makes sense that it would be Lea.]

[ Lea had her mouth open for a defense, because she only burns things a little bit, but it hangs open a little longer in shock. Then she's twisting sideways on the couch, reacting with surprise and concern and talking all at once. ]

You what? Are you okay? Did you get hurt?

I'm fine! Nothing a potion couldn't fix, since it seems like maybe I was trying to attack myself, with no other Hearts around.

[she ripped the shit out of the shirt she'd been wearing, and scratched herself up pretty good, but that was all. now she's turning pink, though, and avoiding looking at Lea.]

It's stupid and really ironic, but I did actually find a Xemnas. He stopped me.

[ Lea looks really upset when Isa says "attack myself", because really, that's her fault. She doesn't have Riku's guilt complex when it comes to her friends, but it's distressing to hear nonetheless. She does, however, go very still at the mention of Xemnas. Weirdly enough though, she relaxes a tiny bit at "he". ]

Oh...

[ Well now that she's embarrassed, fully aware of her own reaction, ]

That's... good, right? Did he snap you out of it?

[Isa relaxes visibly at the fact that Lea's not blowing up, even though really, there would be no reason to.]

Yeah. I was really out of it, so he took me back to his place and made sure I was okay, it was actually really sweet. I spent the night on his couch.

[he was a total bro about it, and seemed to almost be the male version of their Xemnas (read: a hot [no hetero] dumb idiot who somehow knew exactly what Isa needed at the time), and Isa knows damn well she can't allow herself to ramble about it because it'll just probably dredge up shit from last night.]

[ "Was he gay" Lea, don't ask that. She's thinking it, though, if nothing else attempted to happen. Not that she thinks Isa would be down for that, she's too gay. Probably? She does seem to have the dokis, at least a little bit, but Lea is surprisingly not worried about it. ]

Good. I'm glad he found you. After everything you told me, I don't think anyone else would've been able to help.

[ She's so confused though. ]

He was like, normal, right? Our kind of story.

[tbh a lot of the dokis are just from the immense weight that was lifted by having someone take care of her right after how angry she'd been. she's clearly still a little embarrassed that she even encountered a Xemnas and hung out, after what Lea said, but it's fine.]

I'm just glad there wasn't anyone else around, I never would've forgiven myself if I hurt someone here. And yeah, as normal as they ever are, he's from the point where you showed up to save Sora and then half of the new Organization faded out from the Round Room. He just ended up here instead, a couple of years ago. Still a Nobody, but I don't think that matters as much for Xemnases.

[took to the dressing room and living like a regular sort of person like a duck to water, apparently; dirty dishes in the sink, potted plant languishing in the bathroom window, etc. books everywhere, t-shirts and jeans, the works. it was very surreal.]

They're all full of shit anyway.

[ She seems to realize how that sounds after a short delay, and has the good graces to at least look flustered, scrambling to backtrack. ]

Not— That's not— I don't mean Xemnas, I mean Nobodies. All of 'em. All of us. Whatever. You know, you were there!

[ And yeah, having a Heart and feeling like a person again is different than what they were when they were Nobodies, but there was still something in there by the end. ]

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[that actually makes Isa laugh a little, the quiet, understated one that she mostly had right after recompleting, like she's afraid someone might hear it. and she cautiously reaches for Lea's hand, because this feels okay again, to her.]

It's true, we were all full of shit for about ten years. And partial Hearts, toward the end.

[ Lea isn't sure whether to be happy she's laughing, or embarrassed from the context. She lets Isa take her hand, but rests her face in the other one, propped up on the back of the couch. She will never escape dweebhood. ]

That's what I'm saying. Anyway... what I said made you go berserk, or...

[that's part of why Isa loves her—]

I was just so angry with you. That you weren't understanding why I was saying what I was saying, or that you would say something like that, no matter how upset you were.

[for context, the last time she was that furious with Lea OR Axel was when she received word that Axel had blown herself up to help Sora get into the castle.]

I'm sorry.

[ She means it, but she also doesn't know what else to say. She was pretty consumed in her own feelings last night, and that hasn't happened (in a negative way) in a while. ]

[Isa's quiet for a moment, working out how to say what she wants to say.]

I just... I did love her, I still have a part of her in me, but I also love you. And none of those things are going to change. I accepted the piece of her Heart because I wanted to, but I also hoped it would help keep you safe, and in a way it did. All her focus was on me, and not you. The physical side of things was a pleasant secondary benefit.

[she tangles her fingers with Lea's and sighs.]

I miss her sometimes, but I wouldn't change what we have here or what we had going back in our proper timeline, not for anything.

[ Oh. Oh, okay. This is good. This is... This more than she expected. Much more, and now she's not hiding her face in embarrassment, but digging her fingers into the sides of her face to try to fight off tears. She's not very good at that sort of thing, of course. ]

[god what a big baby. but she's Isa's big baby, and that's what's important. this isn't precisely the reaction she was expecting, but it probably should have been. Isa's scooting closer to Lea to kiss her on the cheek, and then on the mouth, and then she rests her head on Lea's shoulder.]

[ No it's okay, she's okay now, scrubbing at her face in between kisses. She's not fully in tears, just emotional and upset that this happened at all. She is a big baby though, there's no denying that. ]

Sorry. I definitely overreacted, I just— I knew what was coming and I didn't want to hear it. I didn't even want to start listening to what you were gonna say.

And I knew that and provoked you anyway, which I shouldn't have done, and I'm sorry. But it's worked out alright, I think. I even got a new dweeb for my collection.

[they probably should have decided on some kind of safeword for the original discussion, and from now on they should probably have regularly scheduled primal screams, or deliberately triggered crying sessions, to keep all this shit from bottling up until it blows. maybe they should both take up kickboxing.]

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